Reflections #1

I want to get lost in a really good book and forget the tumults of reality. But I also feel afraid that if I lose myself too much I wouldn’t pay attention to smaller issues in reality that may become big if I don’t immediately address them. But, this is the only way I feel charged. By reading a really good absorbing book that helps me cast aside all the pain and suffering and demands of daily life.

The transition from a working woman to a working mother to a full time stay at home mom is very difficult and I have nobody to relate this to and discuss my mind with. People would say I am complaining, that I should be grateful. I am grateful and I know I am doing an important job raising kids but it takes toll on a woman regardless of how to sugar coat it and it is very, very difficult. And, I don’t know how to calm my inner self when there is so much to do – most mundane and repetitive but time consuming work everyday which saps away my mental and physical energy and I don’t know how else to cope but lose myself in a really good book once my kids are asleep. But then, sleep overtakes me and the day changes and I wake up irritated most often than not.